I love my mom dearly, but I cannot understand her.  I know that everyone grieves differently… I respect that.  However, she’s making it really difficult for the rest of us to deal with this tragedy.  I sat here for some time writing out everything she’s been doing to belittle my grief, but I decided it didn’t need to be published.  (However, I’m glad I got it out of me.)  I’m sad that she won’t allow anyone to connect with her… that she is using the “my grief trumps all” excuse to push people away.  I am not going to challenge her, but I hope that it’s only a phase.  It sucks that I can’t tell my mom how much I miss my dad.

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